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I Don’t Know Why I Remember: Part 2

If you’ve been reading my last few posts, you’ll know that I’ve been working through writing exercises from Alice LaPlante’s The Making of a Story.  Go back to Part 1 for a more thorough explanation of the exercise.  In keeping with my attempt to not procrastinate, I wrote about two memories.  Ms. LaPlante suggests several.

I don’t know why I remember my grandmother Irene’s house so well, almost more than my childhood home.  Grandma lived in rusty red fourplex of government subsidized housing in Poteet.   The porch was concrete, grey and slick, and the screen door spring was tight, so tight that it squeaked upon opening and shut with a huge BANG, followed by two more bounces.  Most of the time Grandma kept the screen door open, but she was sure to keep the hook-and-eye latched.  She liked hearing the comings and goings of her neighbor, an older woman like herself that she didn’t care for that much.  “That old woman, across the way, she knows er’erbody’s business.” The front door opened straight into a small living room that had one couch, still covered in plastic “to protect it,” a braided polyester rug with small navy and orange stitching, a radio (“turn it up, that’s Freddy Fender!”), a black and white t.v., and a bookshelf with school pictures of every grandchild in every stage of development.  On the wall, she had a picture of herself when she was in her late twenties or early thirties.  Aside from her nose, I would have hardly recognized her.  She was young, with a fashionable 40’s hairstyle.  Though black and white, I could tell she was wearing red lipstick on her thin lips.  She smiled with her lips closed, to conceal her teeth, or lack thereof.

Whenever I spent the night, I would awaken to a wedge of light from my favorite room, the kitchen.  Grandma woke up when it was still dark.  I’d lie in bed listening the sounds of the morning.  The click of the gas stove, the drip of the coffeemaker, the fridge opening and shut.  The stove was a burnt brown enamel and a cast iron skillet always sat ready on the back burner.  The fridge had a small, manual defrost freezer.  I would often open the freezer and eat the ice crystals that formed along the sides.   A set of ceramic fruit decorated the wall, and bowl of plastic fruit and eggs sat on the gold-flecked formica kitchen table.  She’d sit me down at that table and serve me eggs fried in bacon grease and sometimes Special K with reconstituted milk. The milk smelled like vitamins.  The washer also sat in the kitchen, and there was a screen back door to the clothesline just a few steps away.  I’d often play in the rich dirt in the garden right outside that door.  I remember one time thinking the black dirt looked just like Folger’s crystals, so I got a spoon from the kitchen drawer, squatted down in the dirt, and eagerly scooped a full spoonful in my mouth.  It was just as hearty and earthy and delicious as I imagined it to be.  I was confused when she ripped the spoon away and rammed a garden hose in my mouth, yelling at me to spit it all out.

Her bedroom smelled like the Dove soap that spilled from the bathroom attached.  Her shower was dark with blue tile and had a corner seat built into it.  I would sit on it just because there was a seat in the shower.  I didn’t have a seat in my shower at home.  There was no door between the bathroom and the bedroom, but Grandma had hung a curtain up in the doorway.  The bedroom was really only big enough to hold the bed, one small chest of drawers, and an old, foot-powered black sewing machine with a big wheel.  She would let me sit at the machine and pump it with my foot, pretending to sew. Grandma kept her necklaces on a miniature Greek statue whose arms were missing.  It wasn’t until I was older that I realized that the arms hadn’t broken off.  The bedroom’s window was really a sliding glass door that opened onto a back porch that was only a few steps away from the kitchen door.  All the ways out of the house made it seem a lot larger than it really was.  Grandma told me that an old man named Mr. Ed would sometimes come and sit on her back porch at night and sing “Goodnight Irene.” When Grandma died years later, we included that song in her funeral program.

I Don’t Know Why I Remember: Part 1

As I mentioned in my last post, I am working through Alice LaPlante’s book The Making of a Story. The first exercise she has you do is to finish the sentence ‘I don’t know why I remember…”  You are not supposed to pick obvious events, like births and deaths, but truly let your right brain take over a seemingly insignificant event.  Again, don’t plan, just write.  And if you’re like me, limit yourself to 10-15 minutes to prevent procrastination.

If you decide to do this exercise yourself, feel free to share in the comments section.

I don’t know why I remember the little girl from one aisle over on a bus trip from Houston to Alpine.  I was traveling on a Greyhound line, going to summer camp in the Davis Mountains.  The bus had shiny velvet-like seats that were bouncy and made my stomach feel upside down over big bumps.  I noticed the girl when she had her head in her mother’s lap.  She sat up and looked across the aisle at me.  She was about my age, six or seven, yet she wore bright red lipstick.  Her black hair was short and curly, with a headband tucked in it and she had black, round eyes with long, curling eyelashes.  She was wearing a black dress with large red roses imprinted on it; cheap, thin material dressed up by a small edging of lace and tiny red buttons.   Her socks were white with cuffed ruffles – polyester socks, the kind that get sucked down into your shoes and make you irritable – and her black patent leather shoes were too big. She would flop one shoe off and catch it on the same foot.

Somehow in the nine hour bus ride, we ended up sitting next to each other.  I asked her where she was going.  She said she and her mom were moving to California.  I asked her where she had been living.  Florida.  That’s a long trip, I said.  Yeah, she said, mom said it will take 3 days.  I pictured their entire belongings packed up under the bus.  I wondered how the bus could hold so much, then I realized they couldn’t possibly have had much more than I did.  I had a huge trunk full of clothes for just two weeks.   Why was she wearing dressy clothes for such a dreadfully long trip? Would she change or wear the same thing for 3 days?  I hated polyester socks.  Maybe they were her only clothes, I wondered.

She had a hard time sitting still when she talked.  She twisted in her seat.  Her mom would occasionally look over at us, but mostly she slept.  She, too, had black hair, but hers was dull, frizzy and full.  She wore it long and unrestrained.  Her eyes were black and on her lips was the same red lipstick.  She looked tired and there were circles under her eyes.  I remember thinking that I was glad that she was not my mother.

My mother had packed me a bag for the bus.  I had juice and books, a few toys and snacks. I pulled out a coloring books and crayons, which I shared with the girl.  She also ate a package of peanut butter crackers.  I can’t remember if she told me she was a gypsy, but I distinctly remember thinking, as I stepped off of the bus, that gypsies were real.